Holidays

Today is christmas eve, i bet everyones excited for tomorrow. Me? Well not really, Christmas is just like another day. For me christmas used to be about spending time with your family, it was that one day out of 365 others days that your whole family got together and spent the whole day together. I cant remember one christmas i had like that. For once in my life, i would like one day were i could have a good christmas, but i know its not this year. But one day, it will happen i know it. 

Other than that i have no spirit in christmas, I'm just rather not in a good mood today. I don't know, there's just to much going on in my mind. Im getting sick, Im tired, I have to finish packing. Everything is so complicated. Hopefully, before this break ends everything will be okay. My wish for now is that this year i will have a good birthday. Usually i tend not to care anymore, cause birthdays are just a day were you just get older! But this year i turn 16. Woohoo right.. yeah hopefully that day doesn't end up being a bad one. Who knows..Happy Holidays. 

God is love<3