why

god, i just don't understand why this always happens to me. why i always have to go through this. this feeling this painful feeling. i feel like im dying. i cant take it anymore. im sick and tired of it all. at times i just dont want to live at all. i mean all i ever wanted was a family, and the only thing i have to my family is leaving. i dont know. i cant stand it here i just cant. why me, why..